here is a very well-written article discussing the killing of deer.

“The evolution of our species does not force species to mature psychospiritually, and individual maturation, in general, does not cause our species to evolve. But, in our time, if we do not mature as individuals (and consequently as societies), the entire arc of human evolution might soon come to an end. We are in danger of extinction––along with the extinction we have already wrought upon thousands of other species. The continuation of our human arc depends on which circle – egocentric or soul centric – we embrace.” Plotkin

i.e. – the scarcity of sages is scary

“Jungian defenses may involve the denial of a potentially life-changing archetypal experience and a defensive return to the earlier, narrower persona; or capitulating to the collective psyche, perhaps with the justification of possessing unique spiritual wisdom or connections.” Mitchell 

I will not capitulate! (?)

http://clockwisecat.blogspot.com/2011/01/fourth-generation-feral-cats-by-laura.html

1. A low level of cortical arousal is desirable for relaxation, hypnosis, and the subjective experience of psychic states and unconscious manifestations.
2. A high level of cortical arousal gives increased powers of reflection, focused concentration, increased reading speed, and increased capacity for long-term recall.
3. Cortical arousal has a simple relationship to skin conductivity. Arousal of the cortex increases the conductivity of the skin and conversely, a drop in arousal causes a drop in skin conductivity. 

from Carl Jung and Jungian Analytical Psychology by Gregory Mitchell

http://www.nthposition.com/canthearmyselfabove.php

introversion=mysticism=contraction=process of change incurred through directing senses inward
extroversion=magick=expansion=process of change incurred through extension of the senses
centroversion=???

@ Clockwise Cat

working at the antique shop is good for me.  it reminds me of when i worked at the small health food store in sugar loaf…i accomplish more of my personal goals than if i were home all day.  i bring in books, notebooks and sketchbooks, and create all day.  something about knowing that i am earning money just for sitting there takes away maybe the guilt of self-indulgence associated with creativity…i just sit back and do it without worrying about what else i should be doing.

today i read gunther’s initiation in the aeon of the child and considered centroversion.

if i’ve lowered my eyes and closed my mouth and sat quietly and alone, and not opened myself up to true engagement, it is only because i need to be so careful when i do so, because when i do it i do it hard, i empty myself out and take you all in to see you clearly, but this is tricky business and i’ve learned cannot be done with anyone, because if you’re that sensitive the switch of it could kill you. 

my hope is that i can trust my intuition and use it wisely, that i can keep those out that must be kept out for preservation, but not reject those for whom a connection with would be important.

and when the matter is uncertain, i wonder which mistake would be worse.