if i’ve lowered my eyes and closed my mouth and sat quietly and alone, and not opened myself up to true engagement, it is only because i need to be so careful when i do so, because when i do it i do it hard, i empty myself out and take you all in to see you clearly, but this is tricky business and i’ve learned cannot be done with anyone, because if you’re that sensitive the switch of it could kill you. 

my hope is that i can trust my intuition and use it wisely, that i can keep those out that must be kept out for preservation, but not reject those for whom a connection with would be important.

and when the matter is uncertain, i wonder which mistake would be worse.