Pathology
From a psychological perspective, dissociation is a protective activation of altered states of consciousness in reaction to overwhelming psychological trauma. After the patient returns to baseline, access to the dissociative information is diminished. Psychiatrists have theorized that the memories are encoded in the mind but are not conscious, ie, they have been repressed.
In normal memory function, memory traces are laid down in 2 forms, explicit and implicit. Explicit memories are available for immediate and conscious recall and include recollection of facts and experiences of which one is conscious, whereas implicit memories are independent of conscious memory. Further, explicit memory is not well developed in children, raising the possibility that more memories become implicit at this age. Alterations at this level of brain function in response to trauma may mediate changes in memory encoding for those events and time periods.

reader, i need you to breathe on this breathless page.  lean in more; all existence is so sad.  sweetheart is sad today.

p. 158 the museum of eterna’s mmm i missed you macedonio

venus, the moon n hey jupiter, all in a careful lil line.  i looked up soft said hey moon. hey you. means torch.

sylvia is my song of the week.

sir son of a dragon, n so what are we to do with that..

spirals.

venus rotates extremely slowly on her own axis in the opposite direction to most rotations in the solar system.  her day is precisely two-thirds of an earth year, a musical fifth.  this exactly harmonizes…so that every time venus and earth kiss, venus does so with the same face looking at the earth.  
 john martineau’s a little book of coincidence

eight earth years equals, exactly, thirteen venus years, the five kisses between them crafting a perfect pentagon, carved out of space.  the numbers 5, 8, and 13 belong to the fibonacci sequence, defining phi.
pinchbeck’s 2012

also, in ‘conjugating’ the golden ratio, some ‘short proofs of irrationality’ are listed on the ever evolving wikipedia, one being a ‘contradiction from an expression in lowest terms.’  like science, i like to read math like a kid would read any other world they didn’t understand, and i like the way the grammar of it all really flows very intuitively.