in the quantum theory of self-consciousness, the collapse of the coherent superposition of the quantum states of the brain-mind creates the subject-object split of the world.  with conditioning, however, certain responses gain in probability when a learned stimulus is presented to the brain-mind.  consciousness identifies with the apparent processor of the learned responses, which is the ego; the identity, however, is never complete.  consciousness always leaves some room for unconditioned novelty.  this makes possible what we know as free will.  p. 202

The death-blow to Jung’s Christian faith came when he felt nothing at all at his confirmation, the religious initiation of which he had been led to expect much. A good deal of his later work can be viewed as a quest to replace the faith he had lost.Renown came first to Jung from his research on word association, in which a person’s responses to stimulus words can reveal complexes: groups of related, often repressed, ideas and impulses that bring about habitual patterns of thought or behavior. While a young psychiatric resident, Jung read the just-published book by Freud on the interpretation of dreams. Freud’s revolutionary idea of attributing unconscious motivation to human behavior resonated with similar thoughts Jung was entertaining at the time, and Jung proceeded to devise an experimental method, called the Word Association Test, which could be seen as providing an objective, scientific basis for some of Freud’s ideas. Jung used the psychogalvanometer as a tool for hitting upon a complex.

In psychology a complex is generally an important group of unconscious associations, conflicting beliefs that stand on their own like a splinter identity, or a strong unconscious impulse, lying behind an individual’s condition. Jung described a “complex” as a node in the unconscious; it may be imagined as a knot of unconscious feelings and beliefs, detectable indirectly, through behavior that is puzzling or hard to account for. Complexes such as the ‘Guilt Complex’ drain energy and integrity from the conscious Ego. What is unconscious tends to be projected onto others: attributed to other people or external situations. The projection may lead to an erroneous perception such as when you think your friend is angry while he himself feels quite content. To resolve the complex may give significant relief.  Gregory Mitchell

associations i am making today would connect jung’s ideas summarized here with that of the logos in the origin of stories:  evolution cognition and fiction book, and the ideas on the metaphorical basis of the subjective self i just read in the origin of consciousness in the breakdown of the bicameral mind, and the ideas of a quantum system running our minds, along with a macro system which works as a measuring device for essentially amplifying these quanta, as detailed in the self-aware universes: how consciousness creates the material world, which i am reading right now.

 

This is the doom of the Makers—their Daemon lives in their pen.
If he be absent or sleeping, they are even as other men.
But if he be utterly present, and they swerve not from his behest,
The word that he gives shall continue, whether in earnest or jest.

if i were to get a tattoo it would be this in black and red ink across my fucking forehead.  (maybe grow out the bangs?!)

like an added dimension over everything.

(i should work on my haunted holographics paper instead of going out tonight.)

heh i miss my people.

i already picked the tiger book, which i left by the bank robbery book, which i really ought to be studying as i am almost out of money.

think i should put together a new chapbook; it’s been a year.  my porous borders blog will be a good start.  now i just need to spend a week actually writing, instead of fucking around.

Misunderstandings and neglect occasion more mischief in the world than even malice and wickedness. -goethe

   The foundation of all mental illness is the unwillingness to experience legitimate suffering. -jung

“image-fiction is paradoxically trying to restore what is (mis)taken for ‘real’ to three whole dimensions, to reconstruct a univocally round world out of disparate streams of flat sights.” p. 173

David Foster Wallace’s essay largely discusses television’s influence on fiction, which i could care less about, i don’t care if every idiot out there was irreparably scarred by television, I was never exposed to it and trying to expose myself to it now is impossible; I can’t understand how anyone could be so easily entertained.  But I love this line and would like to take that idea and use it as a grounding statement for what I want to be doing with my fiction, as far as constructing a round world out of the multiple realities that to me stem from much more complicated sources than something like television.

p. 132 before a dream is realized, the soul of the world tests everything that was learned along the way.  it does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream.  that’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’  every search begins with beginner’s luck.  and every search ends with the victor being severely tested. (darkest hour right before dawn etc.)

p. 156 everything that happens once can never happen again.  but everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.

p. 159 ‘be aware of the places where you are brought to tears.  that’s where i am, and that’s where your treasure is.