our thoughts, our beliefs, are not attached to us.  they fall away if we do not hold onto them…
any belief not lived is empty baggage.  goswami p. 249

oh and i’m such a sucker for holding on.  i like the lightness of the lack of material things in my life.  maybe i should translate that into a tool for purging any stale ideas crumpled up into the corners of my pockets.

the imperative conditions that create a double-bind are that a) two people are involved and b) there is a bond between these two people that cannot be broken.  that is, the situation is such that the person in the double-bind has temporarily surrendered his ego autonomy.  of course, once the jump to a new context of living takes place-an event called satori- the job of the master is accomplished, and he lovingly releases the double-bind.
p. 240 goswami

the creative individual’s ego has to be strong-willed to be persistent and has to be able to handle the anxiety associated with unknowing-with the quantum jump into the new. p. 228 goswami

so it’s the tangled-hierarchical encounter of the classical and quantum modalities of the mind that lets us leap frog to new creative spaces.  well i can’t say i’ve ever considered my ego to be very well formed, but i do consider one of my few strengths to be patience with the unknown…i believe i have a talent for not jumping…to conclusions, easy solutions, etc.  this could just be a comfortable familiarity with the practice of torturing oneself, but i’d like to think it could be viewed instead as a skill, if one wanted…see my notes on the story of b

to arrive at the simplest truth, as newton knew and practiced, requires years of contemplation.  not activity.  not reasoning.  not calculating.  not busy behavior of any kind.  not reading.  not talking.  simply bearing in mind what it is one needs to know.

g. spencer brown

we must understand that crisis is at once danger and opportunity-opportunity for creative inner transformation.
p. 222 goswami

but that’s also where all this anxiety comes in…i know the power packets held in these moments are so so strong

forthcoming (february 1) in the stone canoe journal.

in the quantum theory of self-consciousness, the collapse of the coherent superposition of the quantum states of the brain-mind creates the subject-object split of the world.  with conditioning, however, certain responses gain in probability when a learned stimulus is presented to the brain-mind.  consciousness identifies with the apparent processor of the learned responses, which is the ego; the identity, however, is never complete.  consciousness always leaves some room for unconditioned novelty.  this makes possible what we know as free will.  p. 202

The death-blow to Jung’s Christian faith came when he felt nothing at all at his confirmation, the religious initiation of which he had been led to expect much. A good deal of his later work can be viewed as a quest to replace the faith he had lost.Renown came first to Jung from his research on word association, in which a person’s responses to stimulus words can reveal complexes: groups of related, often repressed, ideas and impulses that bring about habitual patterns of thought or behavior. While a young psychiatric resident, Jung read the just-published book by Freud on the interpretation of dreams. Freud’s revolutionary idea of attributing unconscious motivation to human behavior resonated with similar thoughts Jung was entertaining at the time, and Jung proceeded to devise an experimental method, called the Word Association Test, which could be seen as providing an objective, scientific basis for some of Freud’s ideas. Jung used the psychogalvanometer as a tool for hitting upon a complex.

In psychology a complex is generally an important group of unconscious associations, conflicting beliefs that stand on their own like a splinter identity, or a strong unconscious impulse, lying behind an individual’s condition. Jung described a “complex” as a node in the unconscious; it may be imagined as a knot of unconscious feelings and beliefs, detectable indirectly, through behavior that is puzzling or hard to account for. Complexes such as the ‘Guilt Complex’ drain energy and integrity from the conscious Ego. What is unconscious tends to be projected onto others: attributed to other people or external situations. The projection may lead to an erroneous perception such as when you think your friend is angry while he himself feels quite content. To resolve the complex may give significant relief.  Gregory Mitchell

associations i am making today would connect jung’s ideas summarized here with that of the logos in the origin of stories:  evolution cognition and fiction book, and the ideas on the metaphorical basis of the subjective self i just read in the origin of consciousness in the breakdown of the bicameral mind, and the ideas of a quantum system running our minds, along with a macro system which works as a measuring device for essentially amplifying these quanta, as detailed in the self-aware universes: how consciousness creates the material world, which i am reading right now.

 

This is the doom of the Makers—their Daemon lives in their pen.
If he be absent or sleeping, they are even as other men.
But if he be utterly present, and they swerve not from his behest,
The word that he gives shall continue, whether in earnest or jest.

if i were to get a tattoo it would be this in black and red ink across my fucking forehead.  (maybe grow out the bangs?!)

like an added dimension over everything.

(i should work on my haunted holographics paper instead of going out tonight.)